Friday, April 1, 2011
Recap!
Hey guys, sorry it's been almost three months. I love how I said I was going to start blogging weekly. haha Well I am determined to join the blogging movement and blog every.single.day.in.April. Yes, you read me right, EVERDAY! Yeah. I can do it, just you wait. Hopefully I don't run out of topics to keep you all entertained with haha. But you will be hearing a lot. So prepare my dears, for a Keara-overload!!!! muahahahah
Monday, January 3, 2011
Dear Girlfriend,
I miss you. I miss my best girlfriend. The one who used to make wedding scrapbooks with me, the girl who shared my shoe addiction, the excellent cook, my Vegas buddy.
I miss my favorite person.
But I'm also mad at you, and heartbroken. Mad that you didn't stand up for me and heartbroken that I wasn't the worth the risk. Mad that you let them treat me that way, and heartbroken that you wouldn't help me.
I thought I was worth it to you, but I guess I was wrong. It still hurts that you didn't have the guts, that you were too afraid of what they would think, that I was too much of a risk.
I miss how it used to be.
I hope you miss it, what we used to have. I thought our friendship meant something to you. It did to me.
I would have stood up for you. I wouldn't let anybody treat you like that, no matte what. But I guess that's just me.
So now I guess I just hope you're happy with your choice, happy with them, because I wasn't worth it.
You shatter my heart love. I just hope it was worth it...
Sincerely,
Girl with the Sunshine Smile
I miss my favorite person.
But I'm also mad at you, and heartbroken. Mad that you didn't stand up for me and heartbroken that I wasn't the worth the risk. Mad that you let them treat me that way, and heartbroken that you wouldn't help me.
I thought I was worth it to you, but I guess I was wrong. It still hurts that you didn't have the guts, that you were too afraid of what they would think, that I was too much of a risk.
I miss how it used to be.
I hope you miss it, what we used to have. I thought our friendship meant something to you. It did to me.
I would have stood up for you. I wouldn't let anybody treat you like that, no matte what. But I guess that's just me.
So now I guess I just hope you're happy with your choice, happy with them, because I wasn't worth it.
You shatter my heart love. I just hope it was worth it...
Sincerely,
Girl with the Sunshine Smile
Tender Mercies
So just let me say that the last 4-6 months have been some of my hardest so far. I feel like I've been to hell and back almost. I seem to have lost all my friends and almost lost myself in the process. I've felt my fair share of fiery darts this last semester. The adversary was working overtime with me.
But through all of this I found a little comfort. :) My ward split a few years back and I was really sad to see all my friends and favorite leaders put into the other ward, but even with that I got the best deal. My new bishop turned out to be one of the best things that happened to me. Bishop Peterson has been a second father to me almost.
Even though I've been gone almost 2 years, he still takes the time to talk to me every time I come home and check up on me. I can feel the love of my Savior through him every time we speak.I love this man so much. He always helps me understand whatever trials I happen to go through and gives me the most insightful advice without me even asking.
Like I said, it's been really tough lately, but he just made me feel so loved. He told me to just what I needed to hear.
"You've been hit with some fiery darts lately. A lot of them. But now's the time to stand strong, to get in that defensive position. But don't lose that Keara we all know and love, the Keara that always smiles and radiates confidence and beauty. Don't lose her through your trials. Pray to your Father in Heaven, don't crunch numbers, just pray to be put into the situations you need to be in and things will work out. Next time I see you I want you to be a 12. Don't stop smiling girl" :)
I really love this man. I can't wait till I get to come to him with a huge smile and a boy on my arm that I want to spend the rest of eternity with and he loves him almost as much as I do. :)
But through all of this I found a little comfort. :) My ward split a few years back and I was really sad to see all my friends and favorite leaders put into the other ward, but even with that I got the best deal. My new bishop turned out to be one of the best things that happened to me. Bishop Peterson has been a second father to me almost.
Even though I've been gone almost 2 years, he still takes the time to talk to me every time I come home and check up on me. I can feel the love of my Savior through him every time we speak.I love this man so much. He always helps me understand whatever trials I happen to go through and gives me the most insightful advice without me even asking.
Like I said, it's been really tough lately, but he just made me feel so loved. He told me to just what I needed to hear.
"You've been hit with some fiery darts lately. A lot of them. But now's the time to stand strong, to get in that defensive position. But don't lose that Keara we all know and love, the Keara that always smiles and radiates confidence and beauty. Don't lose her through your trials. Pray to your Father in Heaven, don't crunch numbers, just pray to be put into the situations you need to be in and things will work out. Next time I see you I want you to be a 12. Don't stop smiling girl" :)
I really love this man. I can't wait till I get to come to him with a huge smile and a boy on my arm that I want to spend the rest of eternity with and he loves him almost as much as I do. :)
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Hello Twenty Eleven!
So it's that time of year again,
time for fire works, after Christmas sales, and....
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS
*muah ha ha ha*
I know it's technically the second, but I was working today, so this will have to do.
Everybody always makes resolutions and forgets about them before Valentine's day, but I am determined. Not only am I making a list, but I'm also making a plan of action to begin implementing them into habits.
I decided on 11 in honor of 2010 so....
1. Journal/blog at least once a week.
-blogging could be considered journaling, so I resolve to post at least once a week, whether it be a full blown post or just a pic. I will post something every week. (so stay tuned)
2. Be more health conscious.
-this always makes the top ten of the resolution list, but everybody can always aim to be a little more healthy, so I resolve to do a few things:
-cut soda down to once a week or less
-eat at least one serving of fruits AND veggies EVERY day
-start exercising more by staying active every day and going to the gym at least once a week, stretch every day
3. Be less self centered and selfish
-put somebody before myself at least once a day
4. Be more positive
-make a conscious effort to smile
-always look on the bright side of everything
-work to make others happy
5.Build my relationship with Heavenly Father
-read scriptures every night
-say morning and evening prayers EVERY night!
6. Get more organized with my time and stuff
7. Widen my literary perspectives
-read more books of varying genres
8. Get more involved in church and school
-attend activities whenever possible
-volunteer for more responsibilities
9. Meet more people
-get more involved
-be more social
-don't be afraid to introduce myself
10. Continue to develop and discover my talents
11. Make 2011 another memorable year
Well I guess that's it for now, but I'll see you in a week!
time for fire works, after Christmas sales, and....
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS
*muah ha ha ha*
I know it's technically the second, but I was working today, so this will have to do.
Everybody always makes resolutions and forgets about them before Valentine's day, but I am determined. Not only am I making a list, but I'm also making a plan of action to begin implementing them into habits.
I decided on 11 in honor of 2010 so....
1. Journal/blog at least once a week.
-blogging could be considered journaling, so I resolve to post at least once a week, whether it be a full blown post or just a pic. I will post something every week. (so stay tuned)
2. Be more health conscious.
-this always makes the top ten of the resolution list, but everybody can always aim to be a little more healthy, so I resolve to do a few things:
-cut soda down to once a week or less
-eat at least one serving of fruits AND veggies EVERY day
-start exercising more by staying active every day and going to the gym at least once a week, stretch every day
3. Be less self centered and selfish
-put somebody before myself at least once a day
4. Be more positive
-make a conscious effort to smile
-always look on the bright side of everything
-work to make others happy
5.Build my relationship with Heavenly Father
-read scriptures every night
-say morning and evening prayers EVERY night!
6. Get more organized with my time and stuff
7. Widen my literary perspectives
-read more books of varying genres
8. Get more involved in church and school
-attend activities whenever possible
-volunteer for more responsibilities
9. Meet more people
-get more involved
-be more social
-don't be afraid to introduce myself
10. Continue to develop and discover my talents
11. Make 2011 another memorable year
Well I guess that's it for now, but I'll see you in a week!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Catch Up....
Sorry guys, it's been almost four months, I can't believe it. I'm so sorry for being so lax on posts, although I doubt anybody reads this, so I don't think it was missed too much.
Well a lot has happened in the last 4 months. I finished up my summer job as a CA. Goodness it was so fun! I met a bunch of fun new people and had a blast working. Since then school started in August, I moved into my first apartment with three other girls. That has proven to be an adventure all on its own. But I'll get into the details at a later date. Until then I'll just say that things were not as I hoped they'd be.
School has been a lot of fun. I'm still studying psychology and photography and they're keeping me busy. I love my new best friend, my Cannon Rebel T1i.
I just love it! It's been really fun learning about all the technical aspects of photography. Until now I've just been pointing and shooting. Now it's finally all starting to make sense. :) I'm praying that everything will all come together in the end and I will actually end up being a decent photographer. So if any of you want family pictures done, or holiday cards, let me know because I need the practice.
Life has been pretty busy for me. On another note, Mason and I spent a lot of time together over the summer and since I moved back to Flagstaff, and we've decided to get back together. I still really love him, and had no desire to date anybody else, so we're dating again. It's been kind of challenging because of the distance. He's still living in the valley, working and saving for his mission at the end of the year, and I'm three hours away going to school in Flagstaff. I swore that I would never wait on a missionary, but I don't see how I couldn't. I'm just so head over heels for this boy. So don't be surprised if some of you get wedding invites in a few years ;)
I suppose this is it, I have to get up early for psych tomorrow. More updates soon... <3
Well a lot has happened in the last 4 months. I finished up my summer job as a CA. Goodness it was so fun! I met a bunch of fun new people and had a blast working. Since then school started in August, I moved into my first apartment with three other girls. That has proven to be an adventure all on its own. But I'll get into the details at a later date. Until then I'll just say that things were not as I hoped they'd be.
School has been a lot of fun. I'm still studying psychology and photography and they're keeping me busy. I love my new best friend, my Cannon Rebel T1i.
I just love it! It's been really fun learning about all the technical aspects of photography. Until now I've just been pointing and shooting. Now it's finally all starting to make sense. :) I'm praying that everything will all come together in the end and I will actually end up being a decent photographer. So if any of you want family pictures done, or holiday cards, let me know because I need the practice.
Life has been pretty busy for me. On another note, Mason and I spent a lot of time together over the summer and since I moved back to Flagstaff, and we've decided to get back together. I still really love him, and had no desire to date anybody else, so we're dating again. It's been kind of challenging because of the distance. He's still living in the valley, working and saving for his mission at the end of the year, and I'm three hours away going to school in Flagstaff. I swore that I would never wait on a missionary, but I don't see how I couldn't. I'm just so head over heels for this boy. So don't be surprised if some of you get wedding invites in a few years ;)
I suppose this is it, I have to get up early for psych tomorrow. More updates soon... <3
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Summer Life
So it's summer time.... only it doesn't feel like summer up here in Flagstaff. I've been super busy working on campus for Residence Life helping out with Orientation. I check in the incoming Freshman for orientation, babysit them when they're staying in my residence hall, putting on dance parties and night, then checking them out the next day. It's a lot of fun, but a lot of work, and lots of early mornings. I got blessed with a really good team. The ten of us all get along really well. They're almost family.
Rockin the blue
Team-building Soccer
Soccer Sunburn
Chillin at the BBQ
Burned my hand making cake
YUMMY chicken kabobs
Team BBQ
A prime example of what should be in a College Freezer
Rockin the blue
Team-building Soccer
Soccer Sunburn
Chillin at the BBQ
Burned my hand making cake
YUMMY chicken kabobs
Team BBQ
A prime example of what should be in a College Freezer
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Would you just lie with me and just forget the world
Chasing Cars lyrics
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
This song has been on my mind all day. Would you please just lie with me and help me to forget the world? I feel so alone right now and found some comfort in this song, especially the version by Natasha Bedingfield
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SdMK8KzpLxQ
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
This song has been on my mind all day. Would you please just lie with me and help me to forget the world? I feel so alone right now and found some comfort in this song, especially the version by Natasha Bedingfield
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SdMK8KzpLxQ
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