A Note from Daddy....

So I was flipping through one of my old writing notebooks from high school, back when I thought I was cool for writing angst-y poetry. ha ha But as I was leafing through all my memories of 2009, I happened upon this note my Dad wrote me on a particularly dramatic and emotional Sunday two years ago.

You are way too sensitive.

What's wrong? No Friends?

You always have me.

I'll always love you and be your friend.

You realize I'm willing to listen to you and offer constructive criticism. Even when you don't want to hear it. And it's always sincere and what I believe is best for you, even if you can't see it at the moment. I know you are not happy with me at the moment, but I do love you, just like your Heavenly Father loves you. And he does not always give us what we want, but what we actually need. Even if it's not fun or hurts at the moment. What you need to remember is that it is always for our best and that somebody when you can look back and see the whole picture you will realize just how much I loved you. So buck up and try to be happy. "And this too shall pass"

Love ya,

Dad

I wonder if he even remembers writing this to me so long ago... I still teared up a little bit as I read his sarcastic yet endearing note telling me to buck up. I guess that passes for love in my house. ;) Just kidding I still think it's really sweet, and especially true.

We're not always given what we want, but what we need.

Definitely some food for though for me these days. I'm so blessed right now, our Father really does know our needs, even if we don't.

Some things I learned over a bowl of bad chinese food...

First of all, hello again blogland! It has been quite a while since I have posted, but I am finally back from my summer hiatus and I've missed you all. :) My goal is to start posting regularly again. (but that's always been my goal hasn't it?) Well I will do my best to find time to inform you all of my mundane and hair brained life as I tackle school, work, life, love, and family.

So I just ended my forth week of the fifth semester at Northern Arizona University. Plainly put, I'm a month into my junior year. YESSSSS! I'm just ready to graduate and do my own thing, no more papers, no more analyzing minute rhetorical devices, no more psychological research! Augh! This semester has been crazy stressful already if you haven't' noticed... I'm taking my junior level writing and research methods class this semester and it is MURDER! The lab is Tuesday nights from 7 to 9 PM and every Tuesday I contemplate switching majors or just quitting school in general. It's that rough.

But I know I will be okay. I realized something today while I was eating crappy chinese food sitting in the union by myself, contemplating life.

I can do this!

I have a Father in Heaven that loves me, an older brother that would do anything for me, and an eternal family that's always there for me. I am blessed, and I will make it through this trial in my life with faith and perseverance.

Seems like common sense right? haha, guess I just have to figure it out on my own first for it to sink in. :)

But while I'm challenged with my own weaknesses I know there are plenty of people out there that love me and I'll be okay.

And while I sit here watching all my friends get engaged, married, and have babies without me, my day is coming. My perfect guy is just getting ready for me. This is my time right now, my time to be a little selfish and do just what I want. Stay up late, eat junk food, go on adventures, just do things for me. And I'm going to ENJOY IT!

I'm going to be happy!

And I realized today that the only person that can make this decision is me. (I think I knew it all along) So I will smile everyday and be grateful for my amazing blessings and all that I have, all the friends and family, the ability to get a good education and broaden my horizons, my job that helps pay for school and all the other amazing things in my life.

I am blessed and everyday spent not enjoying it is one more day wasted that I will never get back.

So thank you for following along with my personal revelation today. Hope you enjoyed the ride. ;) And I promise this won't be the last time you hear from me....

Until then....

<3 Keara