Saturday, November 12, 2011

Dear Girlfriend,

So it's been a year. A whole year since I've seen your beautiful face. A year since you've been a part of my life. 365 day since I've been able to tell you, "Girlfriend, you are the best!"

I miss you. My life hasn't been quite the same since I left, since I've been without you in my life.

I don't like it. I don't like that I wasn't the one to comfort you when he left, to tell you that he never deserved you, that you can do better. I don't like that I wasn't one of the first people you called after your accident. I don't like being strangers anymore. I miss hearing all the little details about your day. I miss your adorable cardigans and tiny heels you always insist on wearing. I miss all our movie nights and girl talk.

A year is way to long.

So I'm giving up, I'm putting aside my pride and breaking the silence. I don't care what happened a year ago, it's not important anymore and honestly, it's all in the past.

I just really miss our friendship, and I really miss you.

So this is my peace offering, I want to be your best friend again.

I want to go back to the way we were before stupid drama got in the way.

So what do you say Girlfriend?

-The Girl with the Sunrise Smile

Friday, November 11, 2011

Okay, so I'll give you a real update....

Sorry, I'm in another thoughtful mood, so I just wanted to post something to commemorate 11/11/11. Wish I were doing something more memorable tonight, or at least with someone. Oh well, this isn't a pity party. More like a homework party with Pandora and my heated blanket. Oh homework, when will you ever end? {The answer is in 4 weeks actually} :) The semester has flown by this year. You will hear no complaints about it from this girl either!

I will say that it's been a little rough this fall. Lots of changes and lots of work. School is keeping me busy. I am wrapping up my fifth semester at NAU next month. Only three more to go! I am still majoring in Psychology with a minor in Photography. It's a weird combo, I know. I love people and I love my camera, so why not do both? Honestly I just really want to be a photographer, but I figured if I was going to spend four years at a university, I might as well get a degree in something I might need, as opposed to photography. Nobody needs a 4 year degree to take good pictures. [at least I hope not in my case}

It's my goal to open my own studio after graduation. Eventually I want to be able to design invitations and announcements as well. {wish me luck}

So I'm sure you want to hear about what I've been up to.

Well lately....

-Still working as an RA on campus in an all girls hall. It's time consuming and overly dramatic at times, but I work with some great people, so it's a lot of fun usually.

-been taking lots of cool pictures lately, remind me to share sometime. I've been planning my final portfolio for this semester, and if it turns out how I have it in my head, it's going to be pretty awesome.

-School has been kicking my butt this semester. Remind me to never take online classes ever again. {worst idea ever}

- It's getting pretty cold up here in Flagstaff. We got about six inches of snow last weekend. So I made a huge snowman with some of my residents and he was awesome. I find myself actually wishing for more snow. Crazy I know! I'm still a valley girl when it comes to summer, but there's just something about snowfall that's so beautiful.

Well I better get back to doing homework, the evil mistress that perpetually haunts me these days.

{1 week till Thanksgiving Break and Turkey Death Day}

Make a Wish!

So as everybody knows, today is November 11, 2011 {11/11/11}

On a Friday too, How amazing is that! A day full of epic wishes...

So in honor of that, I will share with you eleven wishes of mine, not necessarily today's {it wouldn't come true if I told you} but some other things I've been wishing for lately, however crazy they may be.

1. Strength
I wish for the strength to get through the rough days with a smile on my face, to push through those hard times and keep my chin up no matter what life dishes up.

2. Faith
I wish for faith to know that things will get better, faith to know that I'm where I'm supposed to be right now.

3. Hope
I wish for hope to look forward to the future, to hope for brighter days, hope for the best.

4. Courage
Courage to stand up for what I believe in, courage to make the right decisions though they may be difficult, courage to keep up my journey to a better place.

5. Love
I wish for love to be my guiding force, true and amazing love that I hope to find one day. Love for my family friends. I wish for the ability to love all things, even the difficult ones.

6. Brilliance
I wish for brilliance to spark my mind and heart, to light up my days and start a fire within my soul.

7. Safety
Like many, I wish for safety for my friends and family, especially those far from me.

8. Laughter
I wish for my life to be filled with laughter everyday because a day without that is a waste of precious time.

9. Clarity
I wish for clarity in my life, especially at this time of big decisions ahead.

10. Peace
I wish for peace, especially as the holidays approach. I wish for peace to enjoy these special moments with my family, especially because next year will be so drastically different. I wish for peace to accept these changes as they come with an open heart.

11. This is my wish for a good year, for opportunities to learn and grow, develop my talents, maybe make my business take off, meet new people.

There's one more 11:11 11/11/11 left today, last one for a thousand years. I hope you all make it count.